It's time for a new blog

So as you can tell I have been having trouble with blogger... from here on out I will be posting at my new site www.truedefiance.wordpress.com .As you can see the only thing different in the address is WORDPRESS. Hope to see you there!

The things that happen here

I was on bath duty tonight. Vange was up first. She developed a love for drinking bath water (YUK!) while we were in LA, so I have to keep a close eye on her. She was trying to dip her finger in the tub water and taste it. "MMMM..." she would say. I was correcting her making it clear that bath water here is a big NO. Especially her because they don't vacinate for typhoid till 2 years old here, so it is a big risk.

Arwyn and Malachi came and were talking with me and laughing that I had previously "shot" myself in the head with the shower and the top of my hair was dripping wet. I got distracted by them, Vange saw her opportunity and guzzled a bunch of water from the rinsing cup, I looked down right in time for the loud burp. AAAHHHH! NOT OKAY.

Once I got her out of the bucket and sent to daddy to get clothed I asked him to crush up two cloves of garlic and get her to eat them raw. A few months back I accidently drank a whole glass of water that I later realized was tap water and I ate 5 cloves of raw garlic, wich is good for the tummy and recommended by some other friends who lived in India. I never got sick.

While I was bathing Arwyn I smelled food. With my ultra- pregnant sniffer, I determined that our take out had arrived. When we got out of the bathroom I heard Josiah say that he was waiting for the food to arrive. "whats that food smell?" I asked confused. He snet the Garlic breathing baby dragon over to me to breathe on me. Her breath put Stinking Rose to shame. It reaked the whole house. I was wildly impressed that he got our one and half year old to choke down raw garlic.

Thinking about the stinking rose got me craving Italian but we settled for Garlic Nan and Aphgany chicken!

Hopefully tomorrow is not too hot or else baby dragon will be sweating Garlic all day.

Yesterday I was in the kitchen and Vange came in, "Arwyn cying (crying), " she said sympathetically " I sad!"

AWWWWE!

The search is on

Josiah woke me up this afternoon from a nightmare. He was on the computer next to me and heard me start to cry, in my sleep. I actually started to cry once i woke up. One from relief, and two from the horribleness of it. Basically in the dream, barring all the bizarre surrounding details, i gave birth premature to the new baby. It was in an egg like a normal chicken eggshell, but had a hole in the egg, but the rest was intact. Inside was my 12 week baby, who didn't make. I will spare you the dream after that point cause it was just gross and horrifying. But what had me crying was the fear that plagues any woman that has had a miscarriage, having another.

You must be guiltily snickering at this dream because of how the baby came out, or you might have overlooked that part and be sympathizing with my looming fears. Either way, I don't blame you. It was strange.

But I couldn't go to sleep after that so i got up and got on the Internet and started "googling" all my questions. We are taking a short trip to Agra tomorrow for a day of rest and swimming at a swanky hotel. My questioned googled was "why can't pregnant women go in the spa?" Just for my reassurance and information before i am faced with the temptation of it. I found this among all the opinions, to my horror. " its like boiling a hard boiled egg".

I quickly abandoned that search and started researching birthing in India. Shortly after we found out about baby number 4, we decided we would have it in India. Millions of women do it. Delhi has great medical care. I don't have complicated births, so far. But I know nothing of what is protocol here. Because its a different culture, they will do things differently. Like epidurals used to be routine for every women just 5 years ago, in the US. There will be things that are routine that are just "different". I want to be prepared for this. My knowledge of Indian Doctor's so far is that they tend to be condescending. The opinion in India, because of caste and so forth, is that Doctors know and you don't, so dint question and don't refuse. Well if any of you know me that just wont fly, If I differ in opinion. But on the flip side I don't want my last birth experience, and I do mean last, to be stressful from arguing profusely to get my wishes.

As I started reading different things and "attempting" to research what I was in for I came across this article, the third being my worst nightmare experience here. I also came across this birthing center called "The Cradle" that was the complete opposite of those stories and my mind was soon eased that if I got to one of these, I would safe and have a wonderful experience. But then I came to locations, and was sadly disappointed that they don't have one in Delhi. So then I started searching for birthing centers as apposed to hospitals and found nothing.

The problem is I am just not a researcher. It is not my strength. And if you are reading this and it is your strength and you feel compelled to research for me, I would be FOREVER grateful!

Surprises

We are back from our visa trip to the states and we encountered a few surprises along the way.

1. We mailed off our applications for change of visas on a Monday and got them back that same Friday! We were delighted to have the rest of the three weeks stress free.

2. Arwyn had a surprsie visit from her friend Reese for 2 days. It was a great fun filled time for them. It was so great to see Arwyn have such fun with a girlfirend that she loves so much. Our time in India has been difficult for her not making any girlfriends. Little girls are hard to find outside the home, once we do they tend to be older and not much in common with her play wise, and the language barrier prevents so much at this point. Seeing her let loose and loving the company with such a special friend was so great! Thanks for making the special trip Reese!

3. We are expecting a 4th baby end of October! Below is an ultrasound that we took the day before we returned (The Wednesday before last). The baby is 10 weeks in the video. Below is a picture of Josiah holding a model (true to size) baby at 12 weeks wich will be this coming wednesday. I am feeling very tired and nautious but good other than that. Last night Josiah was reading Pilgrims Progress to the kids before bed on our bed and I fell asleep, at 8:15! I didn't get up till 8 this morning and after I got up and got ready and cooked breakfast, I was ready for a nap:) We were surprised by this lil one but are welcoming the change in plans and the new adventure of having a baby in India. 4 kids! seems crazy sometimes!